My Heart is not Berlin

Last night
I saw someone post an inside joke
on your Facebook wall
and I was reminded that
I now live on the other side
of the divide between
acquaintance and best friend
knock knock
no response
I guess you no longer care
that I’m here.

I remember our younger days
the bitter nights
where words thrown in anger
could shatter our souls
slowly building barricades from

– – – – – – – pieces of our broken hope – – – – – – – 

I thought I was bulletproof yet
“you’re a good person but not a good friend”
ricocheted in my brain
up until the moment
our eyes met again
and then all I could hear was
silence

then suddenly one day
apologies were made
reparations were paid
but the pain could never fade away
because your apathy to our history
means you don’t notice that
my heart is not Berlin
and perhaps that’s why
the scars of our divide
will always remain


Originally published in Michael King Writers Centre’s literary magazine, Signals 2015.

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8 thoughts on “My Heart is not Berlin

  1. I came from the Community Pool.

    Oooh. Who is the person, who is the other? I hear the hurt, so beautifully expressed, guilting the other if that were possible. The other responds with casual cruelty, then “relents” and toys with the writer for a bit. I really love it. You asked what to do when inspiration does not strike. You could just start writing about whatever comes into your mind for ten minutes, and see if any of that leads you to a piece worth publishing, or just publish the screed. You could write about whatever brings strong emotion in you right now: what makes you fearful, angry, delighted? What was your last meaningful conversation with a stranger? Or, if you write something this good, just enjoy writing at this standard occasionally.

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    1. It’s written from dramatised personal experience 🙂

      Thanks for the writing tips, I’ll definitely try them out (although I have admittedly a tonne of drafts already of following writing prompts and getting nowhere but it’s worth another shot!) and your lovely compliments, thank you! oh my gosh ❤

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  2. That’s a really impressive piece, well done! Some poetry does tend to get a bit predictable but this held my attention all the way through. Awesome title & theme; love the inserted line/wall. Interesting how Clare above read it as 2 voices while I felt it was just from the writer’s point of view. Big thumbs up from me, anyway 🙂

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