The Combustion Triangle of the Heart

in a world
without trust,
I will no longer feel the heat of betrayal

in a world
without betrayal,
I will no longer find fuel for hope

in a world
without hope,
I will no longer need to hold my breath

they say fire
needs three elements
to expel the dark

but I’m afraid
that a stray spark
could burn the entire town to the ground

perhaps it is worse,
that nobody can ever wring this wretched heart dry
and I shall drown in this lake named sorrow.

Inspiration from none other than 13 year old me. Specifically, this poem is adapted from the quote from the ‘Megabook’ I was planning to write back then that I’d somehow completely forgotten about, that is, until I dug it out by chance from the archives of my very first email account.

It is pretty clear even on first glance that this masterpiece can only be produced with the expertise of an aspiring young writer without any relevant skills in design.

That being said, even though I’m rather embarrassed about my font choice (drop shadow on papyrus), writing style (riddled with mistakes), photography (on a point and shoot camera, edited on a popular web app at the time), I have nothing but respect for my admittedly naive and stubborn drive to write a book.

That is a task that sounds near impossible for present day Maggy, someone who struggles to blog more than once a month, let’s not even talk about university essays. It has been a nice reminder that I should stop thinking so much and just keep writing. Even if that means I’ll be publishing things that aren’t quite perfect like poems where the vision of writing in couplets of three being a bridge between form and content translates awkwardly at times.

After all, I don’t think I will ever look back on past work and be 100% satisfied with it, so I really shouldn’t let that hold me back as much as it does. So here’s another angsty piece of work to join the ranks that exist on this blog, demonstrating that even though I’m less prolific than I was 6 years ago, at least the perpetually emotional teenage girl inside of me is still here!