I lost my heart in Xi’an,
slipped it into the suitcase
of a boy I’d met three days ago
before kissing him goodbye.
Strange, how stray words tangle
and lives shaken off trajectory,
My youth was spent by simple
seaside. Every day, watching the
gentle rise and fall of predictable
tides. Whilst he grew up on the
other side of a different shore line.
I wonder if the same waves would
remind him of when he saw crimson
flow, breathed in the stench of fragile
bodies broken by the warm earth
they were buried under, all the
nameless numbers surrounded by
plaques of rubble and dust while
the sun rose behind him as if
it was just any other day.
Since my articles are usually fuelled by intense emotions, I am envisioning this will be a bit of a challenge. To give you an indication of how bad I am at task-based writing:
Every single article that has ‘draft’ next to its name was started with inklings of what, at the time, felt like a great idea. They will probably never be finished, simply because I felt too calm writing on those issues. Admittedly, I have developed a dysfunctional relationship with words (but isn’t that what journalling is all about?)
It could easily be written off as a 17 year old girl trying to be a little bit ‘edgy’ and ‘cool’ with the title of her new blog. I’m not going to lie, I spent a lot longer obsessing over my URL than any sane person ever should have.
I can say without (too much) shame that I have hosted various blogs in the past. Unfortunately, due to my capricious nature, the end result has always been me losing motivation as my passions drifted onto some new, exciting adventure. The fact that the popularity of my content was not directly proportional to the time that has passed was a large contributor to my decline of interest.
This time, I’m hoping it will be a little bit different.
I am putting no pressure on myself to influence the popularity of this blog hence it will exist in a state of <matrix unfulfilled>
matrix: the cultural, social, or political environment in which something develops
I will let my blog find its footing (or not) largely on its own. I won’t go out of my way to promote, post on a strict schedule or in a format that is deemed easily digestible for the ‘internet generation’ just for the sake of gaining audience.
That makes blogging less fun! Instead, this can be my little corner of the internet that people can visit if they wish.